nothing will be the same.

I eat my favorite foods, they taste like dirt.

I see my favorite movies, but I am uninterested.

I hear our song, I feel sick

I see your picture, I feel weak.

I hear your voice, I can't contain the tears.

Instead of one, we are none.

The rain falls but I hear no sound

People laugh but all I do is frown

You ripped my heart out and gave it back

Almost like an instant heartattack.

We say we are the same but everything is different.

The feeling is killing me, but all I can do is smile

And pretend the pain away.

No one will listen, I have no one now.

Why does this good feeling have to be over, when alll I really want is to go back to the way we were,

happy,

Ignorant,

simple.

I just wish that things were different.

And I just wish I was in your arms again, as your lover, as you companion.

Not as your friend.

I hope God gives me the strength to over come this,

because as it stands now,

I am confused

heartsick

unsure

vulnerable

and I have no protection, becuase you were my protection.

I have no one to trust,

and it kills me when I wake up thinking of you.

No matter where I turn, there you are.

And I can't help but love you, even if it means risking losing everything I have in life.

I took a risk falling into love.....

so now I am taking a risk by staying in love with someone, who doesn't love me.

Even if I don't want to love you, I do.

I pray for you always, and you will always be the one I want to be with for eternity,

Even when you don't see it.

Love is blind, but fear is the actual Blinder.

Everytime you call,

My love grows stronger,

even though I can't say it,

because we aren't what we used to be.

So even if I never say it because it hurts too much,

I mean it.

I love you.

I'm hurt,

but I still love you more than life itself.

Maybe that's why I can't stop thinking about you,

and nothing seems as bright and as important as it did before.

The world became gray when everything changed between you and me.

Nothing makes sense.

Nothing ever will.