I had a nice time tonight. It got my mind off everything that is happening right now. Cuz let's just be frank....every few minute throughout today I was bawling and walking around my house like an idiot, because the truth is... I don't know what to do without Jason in my life right now. 6 and a half months in and Its like an addiction to talk to him every night at about 10pm. But tonight he didn't call. It hurt and I am like in shock... but at the same time... did I really expect him to call me after last night?Anyways... dealing with it as poorly as I am ( this is the part where I beg him to compromise and work it out with me... yada yada) I called on a friend. This friend who shall remain unnamed for a while, has been a great friend in the past. This friend took me out for ice cream and we sat in the back of the truck and talked (mainly about everything that is happening or happened) and it was nice to have someone right there to help me through it. side note: A team is an awesome show. lol. anyways, I hung out with some guys and stuff and watched A Team and we went to dairy queen and got cheesequakes.... (almost as good as Chipotles) then I was home before curfew. It got my mind off things at least a little while. While every one seems to be relieved with my relationship outcome.... I have to say.... I am not. I want things to go back to how they were. Can't they just go back to how they were? If not, how am I supposed to handle this? I am just letting everyone know.... I'm officially losing it.
jessica
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