Friends and their ways

Well, I guess I have figured a few things out.
First, Jason has become one of my best friends. He is there when I want him to be and there when I don't. It's like something changed and I grew up and realized that he isn't only dating me... he IS my best friend.
Secondly, I found out that I was trying to fit in with a group of friend who are on a different social level than I am. I don't really know if I am ahead or behind, but the real point is that no matter how hard I try or no matter how much of an effort I make to have a friendship with them, it is not going to work if they don"t want it to.
Third, I have found that I have 3 really close friends. Audra, Ashley, and Brooklin. All three of them were nice enough to check in on me and be concerned about my health when I got my wisdoms out. I find that if I am not hanging out with one of them, I am with another. Brooklin and I seem to be getting closer by the day, and she is totally coming to my wedding, if I ever have one, that is. I promised I would go to hers too. Too bad I didn't meet her sooner. ;) Anyways, Ashley mclean and I have also been hanging out quite a bit. From scary movies to Applebee's to trips to the store, we go anywhere together. Audra, is still dating that guy, but we are finding more time to laugh and chill and talk about stuff.
School is going good...... except for when we had the sex talk in class in my dating and courtship class today. That was enlightening..........ok, so I did learn a lot and I am alittle more open about it than before, but I tried to kind of talk to my mom about that subject and it was just weird and awkward. Sorry mom, no offense..... but sex is way awkward to talk about in our family. I dunno why, but it just is.
As far as relationships go....... Jason is the cheese to my macaroni........(as so wonderfully stated in the movie Juno) We talk on a daily basis and are striving to be a better couple and even moreso...... better friends. I have learned more in this relationship, than in any other previous relationship I have ever had which is up to .......*counts*.......mmmmm about 6. lol. But things are going well, and he starts school in a week and I am so proud to say that he is going back to school. Things are going very well in my life, and I have learned a lot in my college career. But the main thing I have learned...... It's easy to go to school, the hard part is gaining a proper education while juggling everything else you have going on in your life. But with all the mistakes, all the dates, all the parties, all the late nights, and all the memories that I have.... I will never regret any decision that I have made in the 4 years that I have been here.

:) Keep smiling world.......
Jessica


UPDATE*****

Hey Guys! I just wanted to update you on the rest of my day. I got a package in the mail from Wal-MArt!!!! It was a cd of songs that Jason had custom made! He is too sweet! Needless to say I spent the rest of the day smiling and pawning over the cutest little cd of six songs with a picture of a couple holding hands on the front! lol. He is the best. I talked to him, thanked him and I just have to say that he is wonderful! He knows just what to do in order to get "brownie points" with me. lol! Today has been hot and wonderful and I am just quickly typing out some homework in haste, trying to be finished for the day. I love summer, its hot and sunny.... and the best part is the mild dehydration that I get no matter what I do. ;) Oh, another highlight, I got to talk to Jason's Mom! She is super sweet! She always wants to know how I am doing and how school is...... Jason seems to think she really likes me, which is fabulous for my side! I love it. Things are the best they could possibly get, unless I won the lottery or something.....I doubt that will happen but hey... why not open the invitation up? Just kidding folks! Anyways......I just hope the rest of the world is as happy as I am.
Things are way too good......
Jessica

p.s. pictures of my present from Jason, will be posted soon. ;)